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Dark times have come to Hogwarts. After the Dementors’ attack on his cousin Dudley, Harry Potter knows that Voldemort will stop at nothing to find him. There are many who deny the Dark Lord’s return, but Harry is not alone: a secret order gathers at Grimmauld Place to fight against the Dark forces. Harry must allow Professor Snape to teach him how to protect himself from Voldemort’s savage assaults on his mind. But they are growing stronger by the day and Harry is running out of time…

I have such mixed feelings about this book right now. Well, something must be right because it only took me a week to read! I tried to force myself to read 100 pages a day so I could get through it quick, but I can’t believe it actually worked. That has to say something about how the book did make me want to read more.

We have to face facts here. And of course, this book is mega long. 800 pages long. And in so, so many ways, it really felt like it. Another fact we have to face is this – not much happens. At all. In parts, I would go as far to say I got pretty comfortable, with how slow it was. For so much of this book, I was setteled far into my seat rather than perched on the edge of it.

“The mind is not a book, to be opened at will and examined at leisure.”

I also have to admit something. Harry kind of got on my nerves. He just becomes a little…ungrateful, especially of his friends. I know he has his reasons and his difficulties, but some of the outbursts he had at Hermione and Ron were so unnessecary.

But I have to say, I did still really enjoy this book for many reasons. Yes, it was a lot slower in pace than the first four, but it’s just different. I also felt that it was a lot easier to get into than the fourth, just because it was more of a flow from the fourth to the fifth book than from the third to the fourth.

And I can’t ignore that Rowling did do something pretty clever, whether she meant to or not. She left us wondering, dropping hints, clues and situations throughout the book, and led up to this massive thing at the end. She used 600 pages to make 200 pages of awesomeness.

“Thoughts are not etched on the inside of skulls, to be perused by an invader. The mind is a complex and many-layered thing.”

I’m so torn about this book, because it’s definitely the first HP book I’ve had real issues with. But it’s also one I’ve found easy to read and I can’t deny, enjoyable. There were just so many layers within this massive story that impressed me. And I loved that. So although I really felt, before I started writing this review, that this book would be a four-star…I just have to give it a 5. Because no matter what niggles, this book is pulled back by an amazing ending that really won me over.

★★★★★

-Beth

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Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.

I loved this book. I hated this book. I mostly loved this book. Argh, where to start. I want to say this book is amazing and dealt with depression well and I loved it. But I can’t. I just can’t. Because I have rules, and this book breaks one of the most important ones.

We’ll get on to that in a bit, because I really don’t want to run the risk of making this a completely rant-y review when I actually really enjoyed this book.

“And this time, I can feel my hand. I can feel everything. And I want to keep feeling everything. Even the painful, awful, terrible things.”

The Good

Despite it’s flaw(s), this is a really beautiful book and it did make me cry. It’s full of hope and life and that’s the complete opposite of what I expected. I went into this novel thinking it would kind of drag me down. I expected for it to be dark and sad and devoid of life. But it was actually very different in many ways – it left me hopeful rather than sobbing.

I also actually felt that for the most part, Aysel’s depression was described extremely well. Although I can’t talk from personal experience, I’ve read many reviews that say her depression is pretty spot on, and I can’t argue. Although mental illness affects everyone differently, most people seem to relate to her thought processes, and it seems to be really well done. Although I have never been diagnosed with a mental illness, I have had my low times, and I can agree that Aysel’s depression was easy to relate to.

Alongside all of the deep and meaningful stuff, this book is good in the general sense. It has some really good side characters including friends and family, it holds an interesting story and a good plot. And the writing is beautiful, without being pretentious like other authors that shall not be named (*cough* John Green *cough*).

“Because feeling things is what lets us know that we’re alive.
And I want to be alive.”

The Bad

Despite how much I still love this book, I can’t overlook one simple fact. And if you don’t want spoilers for this book, you might want to skip this part!

Aysel was cured.

I just want to say, I wouldn’t say I disagree that being in love can help with depression. In fact, I think having people around you is an incredibly big help. Hell, I even think being in love can help you see the world through fresh eyes and help emotionally. But I can’t help but feel that this message could be slightly damaging to teens. I think it’s about time we have a book about a character who overcomes a mental illness with the help from their family, friends, and a doctor or other mental health specalist. It’s not that I don’t agree with the message this book portrays, I just believe we need another story.

★★★★

-Beth

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