Review: My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga

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Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.

I loved this book. I hated this book. I mostly loved this book. Argh, where to start. I want to say this book is amazing and dealt with depression well and I loved it. But I can’t. I just can’t. Because I have rules, and this book breaks one of the most important ones.

We’ll get on to that in a bit, because I really don’t want to run the risk of making this a completely rant-y review when I actually really enjoyed this book.

“And this time, I can feel my hand. I can feel everything. And I want to keep feeling everything. Even the painful, awful, terrible things.”

The Good

Despite it’s flaw(s), this is a really beautiful book and it did make me cry. It’s full of hope and life and that’s the complete opposite of what I expected. I went into this novel thinking it would kind of drag me down. I expected for it to be dark and sad and devoid of life. But it was actually very different in many ways – it left me hopeful rather than sobbing.

I also actually felt that for the most part, Aysel’s depression was described extremely well. Although I can’t talk from personal experience, I’ve read many reviews that say her depression is pretty spot on, and I can’t argue. Although mental illness affects everyone differently, most people seem to relate to her thought processes, and it seems to be really well done. Although I have never been diagnosed with a mental illness, I have had my low times, and I can agree that Aysel’s depression was easy to relate to.

Alongside all of the deep and meaningful stuff, this book is good in the general sense. It has some really good side characters including friends and family, it holds an interesting story and a good plot. And the writing is beautiful, without being pretentious like other authors that shall not be named (*cough* John Green *cough*).

“Because feeling things is what lets us know that we’re alive.
And I want to be alive.”

The Bad

Despite how much I still love this book, I can’t overlook one simple fact. And if you don’t want spoilers for this book, you might want to skip this part!

Aysel was cured.

I just want to say, I wouldn’t say I disagree that being in love can help with depression. In fact, I think having people around you is an incredibly big help. Hell, I even think being in love can help you see the world through fresh eyes and help emotionally. But I can’t help but feel that this message could be slightly damaging to teens. I think it’s about time we have a book about a character who overcomes a mental illness with the help from their family, friends, and a doctor or other mental health specalist. It’s not that I don’t agree with the message this book portrays, I just believe we need another story.

★★★★

-Beth

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Review: Scarlett Epstein Hates it Here by Anna Breslaw

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Meet Scarlett Epstein, BNF (Big Name Fan) in her online community of fanfiction writers, world-class nobody at Melville High. Her best (read: only) IRL friends are Avery, a painfully shy and annoyingly attractive bookworm, and Ruth, her weed-smoking, possibly insane seventy-three-year-old neighbor.
When Scarlett’s beloved TV show is canceled and her longtime crush, Gideon, is sucked out of her orbit and into the dark and distant world of Populars, Scarlett turns to the fanfic message boards for comfort. This time, though, her subjects aren’t the swoon-worthy stars of her fave series—they’re the real-life kids from her high school. And if they ever find out what Scarlett truly thinks about them, she’ll be thrust into a situation far more dramatic than anything she’s ever seen on TV…

This book has left me with very mixed feelings. I loved it, and I was bored. It was easy to read, but I didn’t find it exciting or entertaining.

I wouldn’t say I disliked Scarlett as such, but I didn’t have much of a connection with her either. I don’t know how to describe this, but I found her…young. She was just so naive. Although I did like parts of her, I felt her character wasn’t developed that well. I also felt she could be a little nasty to some of the other characters for no reason. And her fascination with her crush?

  1. You’ve barely talked in 4 years
  2. He’s not, like…yours?
  3. Why do you like him? Again, I want more character development. I want to know more about who is as a person (other than he likes comedy).

“The best parts of life aren’t clear-cut or obvious—they don’t have neat endings”

I unfortunately felt similar feelings for all of the characters. I love that this book had a variety of different characters, but I couldn’t help but be confused among some. Take Ruth and Dawn for example. It took me like half the book to realise which was which.

I have to say, I found this one really easy to read. I literally read 80 pages in about 45 minutes. I got through this one so quickly and I loved it because of that.

I know it’s your inclination to skip to the end, but you can’t just focus on how it’s all gonna turn out.”

I also actually thought the fanfiction was done pretty well and I enjoyed the story within the story.

And one last criticism is the ending. I can’t remember much about it, but I wish more things were tied up. It just felt a little…empty.

So there’s plenty of negatives, but I can’t say I didn’t enjoy it.

★★★

-Beth

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Review: The Night Circus by Erin Morgernstern

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The circus arrives without warning. No announcements precede it. It is simply there, when yesterday it was not. The black sign, painted in white letters that hangs upon the gates, reads: Opens at Nightfall Closes at Dawn. As the sun disappears beyond the horizon, all over the tents small lights begin to flicker, as though the entirety of the circus is covered in particularly bright fireflies. When the tents are all aglow, sparkling against the night sky, the sign appears. Le Cirque des Reves. The Circus of Dreams. Now the circus is open. Now you may enter.

I absolutely adored this book. I found it magical and beautiful, and I don’t know how anyone could not feel involved and enchanted by this book.

It’s been a year now since I found this one, and although it’s taken me a while, I’m so glad I finally got round to reading it! It’s not often that I find a book so heavily setting based, but it worked. It worked so well. It’s hard to describe what exactly I loved so much about this book. I just felt utterly captivated by it.

I can understand why people have called this book boring – but I think sprawling suits it much better. This book kind of needs a large collection of pages to explain itself completely. The plot can come across as so complicated, it works being revealed slowly.

Secrets have power. And that power diminishes when they are shared, so they are best kept and kept well. Sharing secrets, real secrets, important ones, with even one other person, will change them.”

I felt so completely inside this book. That’s hard to describe, but it’s true. I felt so deeply involved with this thing that is the circus. And I think that’s why this book stands so far apart from many others, because I didn’t feel necessarily involved in the characters or the plot or any normal bookish things. But I felt involved in the circus, and for me, that was enough.

I would agree that this book is slow. But it’s slow in a relaxing, chilled way. It’s slow in a way that let me consume this book over weeks. This book isn’t without romance, but don’t go into it thinking you’re going to read a romance book. Actually, I would say this book is much more about love than romance. Love between people. Love between places. Love contained in letters sent across the globe.

Writing them down is worse, because who can tell how many eyes might see them inscribed on paper, no matter how careful you might be with it. So it’s really best to keep your secrets when you have them, for their own good, as well as yours.”

I don’t know what else I can possibly say about this book as I don’t feel I could possibly do it justice. This is an incredibly atmospherical read and I would highly recommend that if you like the sound of it, you should go and read it. And when you do, be prepared to be transported into a world that will completely and utterly enchant you.

★★★★★

-Beth

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Review: The Territory (#1) by Sarah Govett

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The year is 2059. Noa Blake is just another normal 15 year old. Except in the Territory normal isn’t normal. The richest children can download information and bypass the need to study. In a flooded world of dwindling resources, Noa and the other ‘Norms’ have their work cut out to compete. And competing is everything – anybody who fails the TAA exam at 15 will be shipped off to the disease-ridden Wetlands, to a life of misery, if not certain death.
But how to focus when your heart is being torn in two directions at once?

I have been provided with a copy of the book and payment by the author in exchange for an honest review. This has not changed my review in any way.

I started this book thinking it might take me a while to get into. Thinking it might be a little young and not something I’d usually read. But soon enough, I was picking this book up whenever I had a spare minute just to find out what was happening next.

Rather than this book being in chapters, it had a break every couple of pages and I loved that. It meant that I didn’t have to committ myself to sitting down and finishing 20+ pages, and that I could literally read this book whenever. And that’s one of the reasons I finished this one in under 2 days!

I also found the writing utterly captivating. Although this book read as though it would suit young teens, I still enjoyed it immensely. Because of this, the book was only 200 pages long and very easy to read, which I loved!

I adored the characters and world. The world had just enough relating to Earth as we know it to ensure I could picture everything clearly, but enough differences to make it stand completely on it’s own as something unique. And this book is just that – unique.

Noa lives in a difficult, dangerous and terrifying world and I felt I could really relate to her feelings. Her thoughts shone through incredibly in the writing and I felt her emotions clearly. Noa isn’t the only character I loved – this book actually has some really great side characters. I felt close to Noa’s friends and family and I felt everything they went through right along with them.

Overall, The Territory is intense, emotional and unique. It left me with tears in my eyes, and now I’m absolutely hooked and can’t wait to continue with the story! I would highly recommend this book for teens aged 12-16 and are readers of dystopia.

★★★★

-Beth

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Review: Twelve Days of Dash and Lily by David Levithan and Rachel Cohn

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Dash and Lily have been dating for nearly a year, but when Lily’s beloved grandfather falls ill, the repercussions take their toll on everyone. Even though they are still together, somehow the magic has gone out of their relationship and it’s clear that Lily has fallen out of love with life.
Action must be taken! Dash teams up with Lily’s brother and a host of their friends, who have just twelve days to get Lily’s groove back in time for Christma
s.

I know, I know. It’s after Christmas, and here I am reading a Christmas book. Why? Because I found it on my shelf and knew if I didn’t read it now I’d have to wait another year! These books are pretty short and easy to read, so I knew I just had to do it.

And I actually really enjoyed this book. I’ve found other books by Rachel Cohn and David Levithan are not usually my favourites, but this is definitely the best I’ve read.

“The minute she left the apartment, I missed having her there.”

I like that this book was short, because I felt like I didn’t need any more. I love the Christmassy feel and Dash and Lily’s relationship. Emotions are explored and written about a lot, and I think the authors wrote about the sad situations in Dash and Lily’s lives were explained really well.

This book made me laugh out loud often, simply because it is so random sometimes. There were some very unexpected moments and it isn’t common for a book to make me laugh!

But as with all loves, I supposed, the consolation was in the fact that she’d be back.”

I won’t say this book was without it’s problems, though. For a start, I kind of didn’t like Lily for parts of this novel. She’s just so…whiny. She seems so self-centered and really didn’t think about what was best for everyone else. I did feel like this improved throughout the novel, but it annoyed me at the start.

But I have to say, I enjoyed this novel. I felt that the authors talked about the progression of relationships in a relatable way, and although it was cheesy, it was just such an easy, enjoyable read.

★★★★
(3.5 stars)

-Beth

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Review: We All Looked Up by Tommy Wallach

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Before the asteroid we let ourselves be defined by labels:
The athlete, the outcast, the slacker, the overachiever.
But then we all looked up and everything changed.
They said it would be here in two months. That gave us two months to leave our labels behind. Two months to become something bigger than what we’d been, something that would last even after the end.
Two months to really live.

Happy New Year everyone! I welcomed in the new year with a quiet night in with my boyfriend, and honestly it was lovely. While we were away, I read We All Looked Up, one of the two books my good friend Pete gave to me for Christmas!

We All Looked Up follows four teenagers in the months before an asteroid hits Earth. It sounds unique, and I’ve heard good things. It’s a contemporary, with romance, and poetic words about the end of the world. What’s not to like?

Unfortunately, I found a few things to dislike. I wouldn’t go as far to say I’m not a fan of this book, or that I didn’t enjoy reading it, but it definitely wasn’t without its faults.

The good

Like I said, I did enjoy these books. I felt a connection to the characters and their ways and I loved the apocalyptic feel of the ever-changing world around them. Wallach explores the way the asteroid affects high school, shopping, eating out, prison and even gas stations. And it actually doesn’t seem unrealistic – because I think it’s grounded by the connection we have with our four narrators.

In some ways, I really liked having the viewpoint of four people – two women and two men. I think it gives every reader someone to relate to, and I definitely felt closer to one or two of them. I also really enjoyed Wallach’s writing, it’s so easy to read. I got through this book in a couple of days and I almost felt lazy reading it. The plot was steadily paced, and that made for a relaxing, laid back kind of reading.

“The best books, they don’t talk about things you never thought about before. They talk about things you’d always thought about, but that you didn’t think anyone else had thought about.”

The bad

Unfortunately, I did find faults with this novel. I may have liked the slow pacing of the plot, but it was just that – slow. I can’t overlook the parts that dragged without much happening at all. It’s the end of the world, let’s have some movement!

Even though in some ways I enjoyed having more than one narrator, you’re always at risk of having a little confusion. And I did feel confused in parts, because I don’t think Wallach defined his characters well enough. I realised around halfway through the book that I couldn’t actually picture any of them. I’m not looking for extensive descriptions, but just a bit of a mention would be nice. Something to help me imagine them – the only one I could describe for you would be Misery. However, I did like Eliza’s development and her interest in photography. It still doesn’t mean I can picture her, but at least she has some kind of defining feature. Something that makes her who she is.

I also have mixed feelings about the ending. I’m so conflicted, but it left me unsatisfied in some ways. I would have just liked something more definite. Something a little more solid and a little less mushy and poetic.

“You read them, and suddenly you’re a little bit less alone in the world. You’re part of this cosmic community of people who’ve thought about this thing, whatever it happens to be”

I don’t know if it’s worth mentioning, but something else stood out for me in this book. I wouldn’t say it’s a bad thing, because I don’t think Wallach really did a bad job…but I could tell this was written by a man. It just stood out to me when the female characters were talking about men, and it was nothing bad, but I just knew.

So there might be more bad than good here, but don’t read too much into that. The bad is always easier to write about, and even if there were faults, I can’t say I didn’t find this an enjoyable and interesting read.

★★★

-Beth

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Review: 36 Questions That Changed My Mind About You by Vicki Grant

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Two random strangers. Thirty-six questions to make them fall in love.
Hildy and Paul each have their own reasons for taking part in the psychology study (in Paul’s case it is the $40, in Hildy’s the reasons are significantly more complex). The study poses the simple question: Can love be engineered between two random strangers?
Hildy and Paul must ask each other 36 questions, ranging from “What is your most terrible memory?” to “When did you last sing to yourself?” By the time Hildy and Paul have made it to the end of the questionnaire, they’ve laughed and cried and lied and thrown things and run away and come back again. They’ve also each discovered the painful secret the other was trying so hard to hide. But have they fallen in love?

Thank you to Hot Key Books for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review!

This book has such an interesting concept! It’s based on The Experimental Generation of Interpersonal Closeness, which is a 1997 experiment where couples were set the task of asking each other 36 questions over the course of around an hour and staring into each others eyes for 4 minutes. Six months after the real experiment, two of the couples were married.

“I have to tell you to your face. That’s the only way I can and/or should do it. I’ve got to think of myself, too.”

I can totally see why Vicki wrote about this experiment. It facsinated me, and so did the book. I went into this book worried that it would be predictable and cheesy. Worried that it would be taking place just in one room with dialogue, and wondering how the author would portray this incredible experiment.

But I actually think that Vicki did an incredibly good job. I won’t say this book wasn’t predictable and cheesy – it was. But I couldn’t help but find it adorable and romantic. I loved both characters, and I found it so clever how Vicki made us fall for someone who originally came across as such an a**hole. I really loved Hildy and the way the book talked about her family life and her friends.

“Because, honestly, if you don’t want to see me, you probably don’t deserve to know the answer, in which case it’ll be my secret which I’ll take to death.”

This book was so fast paced and really easy to read, I literally sped through this book so quickly. I guess you could say I’m a big romantic, and because of that I really liked this book. But I think you do kind of have to be a romantic to love this book. It’s no bad thing, but I think you should go into this book prepared for cheese.

I found the mixture of texting/dialogue and prose actually worked and is part of the reason this book is so fast paced. Overall, I can safely say I enjoyed this book and I found it really well written. It also included some hilarious lines that actually made me chuckle out loud. I won’t be giving it the full 5 stars simply because it’s not perfect and didn’t completely blow me away, but it’s definitely one I’ll be recommending in the future for lovers of a good rom com. In fact, if this was a rom com movie, I think it’d do really well. And I’d definitely be queuing up to see it.

★★★★

P.S. If you like the sound of books based on The Experimental Generation of Interpersonal Closeness, I’m fairly certain it’s loosely mentioned in one of my favourite books, The Sun is Also a Star by Nicola Yoon.

-Beth

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Review: There’s Someone Inside Your House by Stephanie Perkins

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Love hurts…
Makani Young thought she’d left her dark past behind her in Hawaii, settling in with her grandmother in landlocked Nebraska. She’s found new friends and has even started to fall for mysterious outsider Ollie Larsson. But her past isn’t far behind.
Then, one by one, the students of Osborne Hugh begin to die in a series f gruesome murders, each with increasingly grotesque flair. As the terror grows closer and her feelings for Ollie intensify, Makani is forced to confront her own dark secrets.

I’ve wanted to read this book since wayyy before the release, and I had the perfect opportunity while I was in Wales on holiday last week!

Okay, this was interesting. I don’t even know how to describe how I feel about this one…so mixed! Firstly, it’s kind of weird to read this book afterPerkins’ other stuff. I’m sorry, but she is not a horror writer in my eyes.

“Neither of then was a monster.”

I’ve been reading a couple of Goodreads reviews and I’ve definitely found the best way to describe this book is this. It’s like a cheesy high school slasher movie in book form. Take Scream, but halfway through the movie you know who the killer is and the book just seems to carry on. It must obvious so far I have a few issues here. But saying that, I certainly didn’t dislike it.

For one, this book actually made me laugh out loud. Like, I really don’t laugh at books, even Me and Earl and the Dying Girl didn’t make me burst into giggles. But there were some incredibly ridiculous sentences that made me had to put the book down and explain why I was giggling.

“She was a human who had made a terrible mistake.”

I really enjoyed reading about the characters, and I’m happy to say this book is really diverse. Makani made a great main character and I enjoyed reading about her background in Hawaii and her Grandma was great! I love that her Grandma was a big part of this novel, because families aren’t usually so included. However, I do wish her two best friends (Darby and Alex) had a little more development.

Unfortunately, the big twist about Makani’s ‘dark background’ did disappoint me. It was built up to be such a big and bad thing that I actually expected a hell of a lot more. I won’t say anything else because of spoilers, but there was just a lot of build up, and in the end I don’t think all of it was needed, or it should have been a bigger twist.

“(S)he was a human who had planned his/her terrible actions.”
(Added gender terms due to spoilers!)

And finally, can we just mention that ending. Like, if anything, the book should have started after, and had what Makani ended on as the goddamn dark background. Unfortunately, it all went downhill at the end for me. Although I can kind of appreciate why it ended like it did, it literally destroyed this book for me.

I actually can’t explain why I hated the ending so much, but I have to remember that I did really enjoy reading pretty much all of this book (apart from the end). I did find it funny, thrilling, diverse and all round enjoyable to read. It had just the right amount of gore/horror for me and the romance was done well in my opinion. So I’m very mixed,  and let’s leave it at that.

★★★

-Beth

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Review: It’s About Love by Steven Camden

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He’s Luke. She’s Leia.
Just like in Star Wars. Just like they’re made for each other. Same film studies course, different backgrounds, different ends of town.
Only this isn’t a film. This is real life. This is where monsters from the past come back to take revenge. This is where you are sometimes the monster.
But real life? Sometimes, only sometimes, it turns out just like in the movies…
… maybe.

I bought this book well over a year ago at YALC 2016 simply because I liked the synopsis, but I’ve only just got around to reading it now. I actually enjoyed this book quite a lot, and there were so many things I liked about it.

On a personal level, this book was pretty cool. For one, Camden is apparently from about 10 minutes up the road from me! And this book is set in my local big city – which I (for obvious reasons) really enjoyed reading about.

“Apology is pointless. Apologies are for when you forget something. Or bump into somebody. Apologies are for accidents.”

I loved a lot about this book. It really tackles some great (and difficult) topics, such as living with someone who has committed a serious crime, which I found really interesting to read about. I also felt (as a media student) that college was portrayed really accurately. I felt utterly convinced that Luke was a film student and Camden obviously knows a lot about scriptwriting. His knowledge really shines through in the book!

You can’t apologise for something you chose to do. That’s like apologising for being you.”

Unfortunately I did have a few gripes with this book – and one of these was Luke. I was wondering why there was something not feeling right about this book, and I think it’s because of Luke. I just felt like he wasn’t the most likeable character at times and although his mistakes were real, they also made me dislike him.

I liked this book and I can’t really fault it – but I don’t think I connected to it as much as other readers did. It was just a little too gritty for me.

★★★★

-Beth

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Mini Review: Milk and Honey by Rupi Kaur

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milk and honey is a collection of poetry and prose about survival. It is about the experience of violence, abuse, love, loss, and femininity. It is split into four chapters, and each chapter serves a different purpose, deals with a different pain, heals a different heartache. milk and honey takes readers through a journey of the most bitter moments in life and finds sweetness in them because there is sweetness everywhere if you are just willing to look.

As mentioned in my birthday wishlist and book haul, I’ve wanted to read this collection of poetry for a long time, actually since it came out. I was lucky enough to receive it from my lovely friend Amy for my birthday, and I finished it in less than an hour the other evening.

“you tell me to quiet down cause
my opinions make me less beautiful
but i was not made with a fire in my belly
so i could be put out
i was not made with a lightness on my tongue
so i could be easy to swallow
i was made heavy
half blade and half silk
difficult to forget and not easy
for the mind to follow”

Milk and Honey is everthing I expected and more. This book is just so raw. It is a complete outpouring of emotion and it made me feel so many too. I cried at the amount of herself Rupi has thrown into this story. I admire her for opening herself up so much to us.

Although this is a collection of poems, it also follows a simple storyline – the journey of Rupi’s self-acceptance and healing. It also includes some gorgeous little simple illustrations which fit perfectly with the poems.

“you were a dragon long before
he came around and said
you could fly
you will remain a dragon
long after he’s left”

Overall, this book is tender, raw, sensitive and emotional. It is heart breaking and heart warming. It is brutal and healing. It is beautiful.

(I don’t to ruin my no doubt 5 star thoughts with this, but the only niggle I had is the lack of capitalisation in this book. Although I actually felt like it worked, I simply can’t be swayed in my opinion of capitalisation. Sorry.)

★★★★★

-Beth

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